Posts Tagged Resisting Temptation
What a weekend. It has been raining non-stop & the kids have been home with me since Friday! I was all booked in for Super Saturday Session at the gym, but my babysitters fell through. I’ve also been suffering a very painful illness with shocking headaches and this awful feeling of being dehydrated because of the medication I’m taking! So I haven’t done any exercise whatsoever since Thursday! And that’s not all. The wheels fell off with my planning and I’ve totally lost track with 12WBT. I haven’t been on a huge junk food binge. I’ve just had too many carbs like white bread and bigger portion sizes and the calories have been over 1200.
Feeling a bit bad this morning, I really hope that I haven’ done any damage on the scales this week but all I can do is get back on the program and keep going. The worst thing would be to give up!!! I feel OK, I’ll accept whatever happens this week and not beat myself up about it. Just have to keep going!
I’ve also neglected the blog, which kind of feels like I haven’t been honest with myself – maybe it’s a form of denial by not blogging about exactly what is happening in my day – the good, the bad and the ugly. Kind of like eating in private – if no one sees me, then it’s not really happening?
That’s something for me to think about – perhaps this is bringing me close to the REAL underlying reasons why I struggle with food.
More on that later I think …
Yep, they sure do. I knew this was coming. We’re into Week 2 and the motivation is still there, but the old behaviours are starting to show up. Last night I went shopping after picking up the boys. I was absolutely starving at the time (alarm bell number 1). I bought a few things, then took the kids to Michelle’s so they could choose a treat (alarm bell number 2). They picked out little gingerbread men and we left. On way home in the car, Mr 4 was asking for McDonalds. I said no, but in my head I was thinking “Yeah, we could have macca’s”. (Alarm bell numner 3). And then the justifications came flying!! I burnt 700 cals today, I can afford to. I’ll just have a cheeseburger and a small fries. Or my favourite … we weighed in today, I can get away with it!
I was literally talking myself INTO it, but at the very last minute, even the last second, I decided NO and I turned right at the round-about to head home, instead of going straight ahead into the land of temptation.
It literally came down to a split second decision of “No, I’m cooking something healthy and more importantly, I’m cooking something healthy for the kids.”
These are the temptations that are going to start tripping me up now. And the choice is mine. Am I going to be ordinary and make the choices that led me to be the size that I am now? Or am I going to be extraordinary and drop this weight, transform my life and achieve the things I want?
It’s a challenge. Every day. A big test of how strong my will power is, whether I can resist temptation, whether my planning is working and most of all – whether I can control my brain and shut up that “inner teenager” who demands junk food and laziness .
Consistency is Key.